long time gone.

I don't usually post sappy shit like this, but this really hit a nerve.

"You will lose someone you can’t live without, and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—- that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp."

-Anne Lamott

suicide.

"To tell you the truth suicide doesn’t tempt me much. Of course I have thought about it over the years; and if I were to resort to it, here’s how I’d go about it: I’d hold a grenade right up against my heart and go out in a bright burst of joy. A little round grenade whose pin I’d delicately pluck out before I released the catch, smiling at the little metallic noise of the spring, the last sound I’d hear, aside from the heartbeat in my ears. And then at last, happiness, or in any case peace, as the shreds of my flesh slowly dripped off the walls.

Let the cleaning women scrub them off, that’s what they’re paid for, the poor girls. But as I said, suicide doesn’t tempt me."

- The Kindly Ones, Jonathan Littell

radio on

Cool Super 8 video someone made for my favourite Modern Lovers song, "Roadrunner."

Makes me wanna go on a road trip. Any takers?